I know I rant alot >.<
Miserableyeah sorry I know I ran too much for my own good. >.<
well so lets just get it over with, my parents have decided for final that they are getting a divorce and then they choose ow of all times to act like they're in love hah!
they're just going to make it harder on my brother. my mom asked me what I thought about it and when I just shrugged and said "I don't really feel anything for it." she said that I should at least have some feeling about it and when I shook my head she just left me in the room.
I'm torn right now cause I know my dad's going to resent me when I go and live with my mom.
I wish they would at least just stop fighting! god I can hear them right through my wall, my door's closed and the TV is on. I hate the way my dad talks to my mom and I hate the way she always defends him. I wish she would just grow a backbone and tell him straight. I know it sounds sorta mean but it's true she should stand up for herself.
I just wish my mom had married someone like Lindsay instead. I wouldn't mind having someone like him as my dad. But wishing just doesn't help does it?
It's getting harder to stay away from the knives and it's getting harder to be around people. I don't know what I'm going to do when I get back to school. >.< I'll probably just avoid everyone and spend break in the bathroom.
although I don't think that'll solve anything. also today is even more upsetting cause it's the day my gran died. I saw her ashes when I was walking to the kitchen and had to hold back tears. Why do the people that don't deserve to die always die?
she was the nicest and most caring person I had ever met, and I'm not just saying that. It's true, she was so gentle and kind and she would never hurt anyone. God I miss her so much.
I just wish she were here, she would be able to hug me and tell me everything will be alright and she'd be able to make me believe her. I'd fall asleep and feel so happy cause she's right next to me in the other bed. I don't believe in heaven or hell really, but I think that if there is such a place as heaven she's there right now. but it still doesn't make it any easier, I wasn't even allowed to go to her funeral. I didn't get a chance to say goodbye.
okay I'm going to stop now before I breakdown completely.
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Mommy 8D lol
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Devious Comments
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a friend would lend u her umbrella in the rain
a best friend would take urs and say "Run bitch run!"
I'm the kind of girl that when my feet hit the floor in the morning the devil says "oh crap she's up."
Sometimes sin's a pleasure, and pleasure's a sin
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a friend would lend u her umbrella in the rain
a best friend would take urs and say "Run bitch run!"
I'm the kind of girl that when my feet hit the floor in the morning the devil says "oh crap she's up."
Sometimes sin's a pleasure, and pleasure's a sin
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Winter is an etching, spring a watercolor, summer a oil painting, and autumn an mosaic of them all. ~Stanley Horowitz
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a friend would lend u her umbrella in the rain
a best friend would take urs and say "Run bitch run!"
I'm the kind of girl that when my feet hit the floor in the morning the devil says "oh crap she's up."
Sometimes sin's a pleasure, and pleasure's a sin
--
a friend would lend u her umbrella in the rain
a best friend would take urs and say "Run bitch run!"
I'm the kind of girl that when my feet hit the floor in the morning the devil says "oh crap she's up."
Sometimes sin's a pleasure, and pleasure's a sin
--
Winter is an etching, spring a watercolor, summer a oil painting, and autumn an mosaic of them all. ~Stanley Horowitz
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